Monday, February 1, 2010

Changed Equations with the one above

I've been meaning to do this for a long long time...mostly when I've been stirred out of my intellectual slumber by something big or trivial...but like other things that one keeps on procrastinating...this too went into the pending list for long...
And ironical as it is, today as I set to write...life has changed...and I have no words to express because I don't have feelings I feel... It's some sort of a numb stupor...painfree...
I feel as if I am liberated of the entire cycle of feeling hurt then healing and then hurting again...
Loss, joy, excitement, attachment...I seem to be ignorant of it all.
Fear seems to be the only sentiment I perceive...fear of losing what I have or rather what I am left with...
Strangely my faith seems unshaken in that power above but then all the same I am unable to seek from Him...I, who have always mumbled a prayer whether it is for an exam or for the level crossing to be open...have no prayers seeking favours...only a small wish (if He choses to hear and grant) that He leave me with what I have...I want no more...I don't know how the association I shared with Him above has changed and whether the changed equation is temporary or otherwise...I shall wait for that and lots else to be revealed!!

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